Yesterday, I had an epiphany – a revelation. You know, one of those moments when everything becomes clear. The Catalyst? – My Grocery List.
Now, I recognize that having an epiphany over a grocery list is not, well, the norm. But, in the moment I looked at my list that day while standing in front of the grocery store, I happened to be thinking about my son’s struggle at school with the neatness of his work. And, when I looked down at my confusing, messy, helter-skelter list, it suddenly dawned on me – Genetics can be so very cruel.
The thought instantly led me to begin a mental check list through all the ways in which Mother Nature had potentially failed my sons.
I thought about:
Every time one of my sons comes home, yet again, lacking the needed details that were clearly discussed but not absorbed by him, and I can hear my successive childhood “I don’t know”s to my Mom in her quest to discover times, details or specifics.
Every time my son struggles with spelling and I have to run for the spelling dictionary I was sent off to college with oh so many years ago.
Every time one of them finds themselves separated from classmates due to excessive in-class socializing and I get a mental flashback of the solitary desk in the corner where I spent a good part of the 6th grade.
Every time their obsessive love for a particular activity keeps me on permanent chauffer status and I realize how well and for how long my own Mom had to wear that hat.
And as all of these things quickly ran through my mind, I couldn’t help but feel a twinge of…Thankfulness.
Yes, thankfulness. Because, as I stood there, poised at the automatic glass doors, grinning like a dork in front of the Boy Scouts and the all too premature ringing Santa, I felt:
Thankful for all the imperfections I have shared with them.
Thankful for all the struggles I get to go through with them.
Thankful that no-one else in the world is quite like them.
Thankful because the proof that they are part of me is never so apparent as in our shared imperfections.
Thankful that they are wonderfully, beautifully, magnificently, perfect…in every single way.